Change As Time


The house was silent, but Ahalya’s voice broke through, sharp and trembling. The air inside the small apartment was thick with the weight of unspoken words and shouted accusations.
"I can’t do this anymore!" she shouted.
Zian’s voice cracked with frustration, his fingers clenched into fists. “Why can’t you just listen to me for once?”
“I always listen, Zian!” Ahalya’s voice trembled, her eyes brimming with unshed tears. “I listen, I adjust, I bend over backwards for you! But when have you ever listened to me?”
Zian stood across the room, his breath ragged. "After everything, you’re just walking away?"
"You don’t understand, Zian," she said, her voice cracking. "You never did."
The argument had started over something small, something insignificant. But like a tiny spark in dry grass, it had ignited into a raging fire, burning down everything in its path. The argument had escalated too fast, words slicing through both of them like knives. Their love, once so tender, had turned into something neither of them recognized. Ahalya, unable to bear it any longer, stormed out, slamming the door behind her.
For the first time in years, she was alone.
The next morning, Ahalya sat at the dining table, her family watching her in stunned silence. Her mother, who had always seen Ahalya and Zian as the perfect couple, looked heartbroken. "You two never fought before. How did it come to this?"
Her brother, Aravind, who had once admired Zian, sat with his arms crossed, anger flickering in his eyes. "You two never fought before. How did it come to this?"
Ahalya let out a bitter laugh. "That’s because I never complained. You all saw a perfect relationship, but you never saw what it did to me."
Her parents exchanged glances. "But you loved him. You were so happy…"
"I was," she admitted. "Before I lost myself."
“I’m leaving,” Ahalya finally said. “I want to go abroad. I need to start over.”
Her father, who had always been the quiet pillar of the family, nodded. “Are you sure this is what you want, beta?”
Ahalya exhaled shakily. “Yes, papa. I can’t be here anymore. I’m scared... I’m scared of facing him again. I just want to be free.”
The next morning, Ahalya sat at the dining table, her family watching her in stunned silence. Her mother, who had always seen Ahalya and Zian as the perfect couple, looked heartbroken. "You two never fought before. How did it come to this?"
Her brother, Aravind, who had once admired Zian, sat with his arms crossed, anger flickering in his eyes. "You two never fought before. How did it come to this?"
Ahalya let out a bitter laugh. "That’s because I never complained. You all saw a perfect relationship, but you never saw what it did to me."
Her parents exchanged glances. "But you loved him. You were so happy…"
"I was," she admitted. "Before I lost myself."
Ahalya had dreams before she met Zian. She wanted to explore the world of art, travel, immerse herself in different cultures, showcase her talent. But somewhere along the way, her world had shrunk to just him.
“I’m leaving,” Ahalya finally said. “I want to go abroad. I need to start over.”
Her father, who had always been the quiet pillar of the family, nodded. “Are you sure this is what you want, beta?”
Ahalya exhaled shakily. “Yes, papa. I can’t be here anymore. I’m scared... I’m scared of facing him again. I just want to be free.”
Her mother hesitated. "You’re not just running away from him, right?"
Ahalya sighed. "I am running away. But this time, I need to... I forgot my dreams, my ambitions.”
“I let love blind me, Amma, please let me go." she whispered.
Ahalya had always been a free spirit, soft-hearted yet strong-willed. She loved people, loved adjusting, loved making others happy. And then, she met Zian. Ahalya and Zian’s love story had started like a fairytale. They had met at an art exhibition, where she was a budding artist, with paint-stained fingers and stars in her eyes, gracefully moving from one canvas to the next, speaking about her creations like they were pieces of her soul. He, a quiet stranger in the crowd, found himself enchanted, not just by the art, but by the girl who made them come alive.
“I don’t know much about art," he had said, grinning. "But if I had to buy one, it would be yours."
She had laughed, not knowing that moment would change her life forever.
Zian was caring, attentive, and made her feel like she was the center of his universe. He would wait outside her classes, surprise her with small notes, and look at her as if she was the most precious thing in the world.
They were inseparable. Long walks, midnight calls, stolen kisses in crowded places, love had wrapped them in a cocoon of happiness. He was her anchor, and she was his world.
"I can’t imagine a day without you, Ahalya," he would say, pulling her close. "Stay with me forever."
Their love grew deeper with time. When she caught a cold, he stayed up all night, making her drink warm water and massaging her forehead. When she was upset about an art rejection, he held her close and whispered, "You are meant for bigger things, Ahalya. The world just doesn’t know it yet."
On her birthday, he filled her room with sketches of them together, each one capturing a moment of their love.
They moved in together after a few years. The love was still there, but so were the first cracks.
"Where were you?" Zian asked one evening, his voice tight.
"At the art workshop," she replied, setting down her bag.
"Why didn’t you pick up my calls?"
She frowned. "I was busy. Zian, it was just a few hours."
"A few hours where I had no idea where you were!"
At first, she thought it was love. That his possessiveness meant he cared too much.
“Who were you talking to?” Zian’s voice held an edge.
“My art professor,” Ahalya replied, confused.
“I don’t like the way he looks at you.”
She had laughed at first, brushing it off as protective love. But soon, it became a pattern. The questions became accusations. The concern became control.
"Don’t go alone. I’ll drop you."
"Why do you need to go to that exhibition? Just stay home with me."
"I don’t like you talking to that guy. He’s too friendly with you."
Bit by bit, his love started to suffocate her. And she let it. Because she loved him.
The vibrant, ambitious girl who once painted the world in colors started fading into the background. She stopped going to art events. She let go of opportunities because Zian wanted her close. She gave him everything. And yet, it was never enough.
One night, she woke up gasping for breath. Not because of a nightmare. But because she felt trapped.
"Zian..." she whispered, watching him sleep beside her. "Am I happy?"
She already knew the answer...
Her patience, once as vast as the sky, had worn thin over time, like a candle slowly melting in the silence of a closed room. Her heart whispered truths, she didn’t want to hear. That day, it wasn’t a fight that shattered them. It was her own suffocating anxiety, built over years of shrinking herself for love.
After the accusations had passed between them, and just before she turned to walk away, the tension hung between them like smoke. He looked at her, eyes clouded with confusion and fear, and asked in a voice that almost didn’t reach her:
"You don’t love me anymore?"
She stood still, her fingers trembling at her side, yet her words came out like a breath she had been holding for years.
"I still love you, Zian… but I’ve forgotten how to love myself while loving you."
His world paused.
All those memories came rushing in like a tidal wave Zian wasn’t ready for. He sat alone in their apartment, the place still smelled faintly of paint and jasmine. Ahalya's scarf hung on the back of the chair, untouched, like time hadn’t dared to move since she left.
His eyes locked onto the space near the window, and he could almost see her there, standing barefoot on the wooden floor, paintbrush in hand, sunlight falling on her face and the way she'd absentmindedly hum while painting. She was everywhere and nowhere.
His mind played cruel tricks on him. He remembered Ahalya’s face bathed in golden evening light, laughing as she smeared paint on his nose… and then, those same hands gripping the edge of a table, frustration and helplessness written all over her.
He blinked rapidly. The memories wouldn’t stop, replaying over and over like a broken film reel.
He could still picture her curled up on their couch, reading aloud from a book while he sat beside her, utterly mesmerized. And then, just as vividly, he remembered the shift in her expression, the tension in her shoulders when he asked sharply, "Who were you talking to?"
He now understood, why her smile changed to slightly hesitant. Her voice, more careful. Her eyes, less spark. The way she shrank a little every time he doubted her, even though she never gave him a reason to.
His chest tightened.
Was that really love?
He had wanted to keep her close. Close enough to never lose her. But in doing that, he hadn’t seen her slipping away, one piece at a time. He had unknowingly taken the colours out of her world and replaced it with grey.
Ahalya was never meant to be confined; she was a wild, wandering spirit. And he had become the net that caught her, not the wind beneath her wings.
Now, in the stillness, surrounded by echoes of their once-beautiful life, the guilt gnawed at him. His throat burned. His eyes welled up. He had held on too tightly. And in the end, he had let her go in the worst way possible, by making her feel that love meant losing herself.
And now, all he could do… was sit in the silence, and remember the girl who once made the whole room feel alive. And wonder if she would ever forgive him.
Days later, Zian saw her, across the street, just beyond the reach of his voice.
She stood near a café, her frame slimmer, posture guarded. Her once-flowing hair was now tied back simply, and though the world bustled around her, she looked like she was trying to disappear into it.
He couldn’t move. Couldn’t breathe.
She turned, sensing something, and their eyes met.
Ahalya froze. Her lips parted, just slightly. And then… her body tensed. Her eyes widened.
She was trembling.
Not with longing. Not with love.
With fear.
Zian stepped back as if the wind had slapped him. A hollow crack opened inside him, quiet and deep. He had loved her with all he had… but somewhere along the way, his love had become something she needed to escape.
Without a word, he turned around. Not because he didn’t want to run to her, but because he finally understood why he shouldn’t.
That night, he couldn’t sleep. His thoughts screamed, but his hands moved gently as he wrote. Line after line poured from him, not to win her back, but to let her know he finally saw the truth.
The next morning, he found Arvind. His hands shook as he held out the envelope.
“Please… give this to her,” he said, voice hoarse, eyes lowered.
He didn’t wait for a reply. Just turned and walked away into the sunlight that somehow felt colder than ever.
Hoping the letter would say what he couldn’t that day.
Hoping she’d find peace.
Aravind had always been wary of Zian. So when Zian handed over the letter, something in Aravind hesitated. Curiosity or perhaps protectiveness got the better of him. He opened it.
As he read through the pages, the raw sincerity in Zian’s words silenced every doubt he had carried. It wasn’t manipulation. It wasn’t a trick. It was the confession of a man who had finally understood his mistakes.
Quietly, Aravind walked into Ahalya’s room, the letter in hand.
"Here," he said, holding it out to her.
Ahalya looked up, puzzled. "What is it?"
"A letter," he said softly. "From Zian."
Her breath hitched. "Zian?"
"You’re leaving soon anyway," Aravind continued, his voice gentle. "Think of this as his last voice… his goodbye. Trust me, I read it. And I think you should too."
Still confused, Ahalya took the letter. Aravind offered her a small nod, then left the room, giving her the space she needed.
She sat slowly on the edge of her bed, her fingers trembling slightly as she opened the letter.
The letter:
My dearest Ahalya,
I don’t know where to begin.. maybe because there’s no perfect way to speak when all that remains are echoes of regret.
Some letters are written with hope. Some with longing. But this one… this is written with quiet acceptance.
If you're reading this, I want you to know, I’m not trying to pull you back. I’m just trying to let go, the right way this time.
It wasn’t your fault that you walked away.
If anything, it was the bravest thing you ever did… for yourself.
I loved you so deeply, so completely, that somewhere along the way, I forgot how to love you gently.
And in losing myself in that fear of losing you, I made you lose pieces of yourself. I see that now. I was afraid. Afraid of life without you. So I built a world where you would never leave. But I didn’t see what I was doing.
I made that world too small for your dreams, too quiet for your laughter, too narrow for your wings.
I wrapped my love around you like armor, not knowing it would become a cage.
You gave everything.
You softened your voice.
You shrank your light.
You stayed, even when it hurt.
And I…
I held on too tightly, not out of strength, but out of fear.
Fear disguised as care.
Silence mistaken for peace.
Control mistaken for closeness...
Ahalya, I’m sorry...
For every moment you couldn’t breathe beside me.
For the love I gave you that felt more like a weight than a warmth.
You didn’t leave because you stopped loving me, You left because you stopped loving yourself… when you were with me.
I won’t ask for another chance. I won’t beg to be forgiven. I just want you to know, I finally understand.
And I hope…
I truly, quietly, deeply hope…
that you find someone who sees your spirit and protects it, not possesses it.
Someone who holds your hand, without ever holding you back.
Someone who loves you freely, like the way you once loved me.
And me?
I’ll keep the warmth of your smile,
the echo of your laugh in our silent apartment,
and the colors you left on my soul, like the last brushstroke of a dream once lived.
I’ll remember it all.
Not to haunt myself, but to honor it.
Because I couldn’t be your forever…
But I’ll always be your once.
– Zian
Ahalya felt a quiet release after reading the letter. The weight she didn’t know she was carrying had finally lifted. There were no more questions, no more guilt, just a peaceful silence that wrapped around her like a warm shawl.
A few days later, with a steady heart and a suitcase full of dreams, she boarded a flight abroad. Her past remained behind, but not buried. It had shaped her, carved her, made her who she was becoming.
Zian, too, after letting the letter go, found a calm he hadn’t known in years. The silence in the apartment no longer felt like punishment. He began reflecting, rewiring his thoughts, and breaking down the fears he once mistook for love. Slowly, he rebuilt himself, not to win her back, but to become someone better. For himself. For the people in his life.
He immersed himself in his career, channeling his emotions into progress. The boy who once clung too tight had now learned the art of letting go.
Years passed...
When his parents brought up the idea of marriage, Zian didn’t resist. He was ready, not to replace Ahalya, but to open a new chapter. The engagement was simple, kind, and honest.
One quiet evening, while flipping through a lifestyle magazine at a café, a familiar name caught his eye.
Ahalya Dara, From Small-town Painter to Global Visionary.
He froze for a second. Then, slowly, he turned the page.
There she was. Graceful, radiant. Her smile was the same, but her eyes held a depth now; a fierce confidence, a quiet resilience. The interview spoke of her journey across countries, of art shows, teaching underprivileged kids, and being invited to speak at global art summits. Her work had become a voice for women who felt unseen, unheard.
Zian didn’t flinch. He didn’t weep.
Instead, he smiled; a soft, proud smile, and whispered under his breath,
"You made it."
And in that moment, he didn’t feel like he had lost her. He felt like he had once held the hand of someone meant to touch the world.
Their story didn’t end in forever.
But it ended in growth. In grace. In gratitude.
Because sometimes, love isn’t about staying.
Sometimes, it’s about letting go...
so that both hearts can find the sky they were meant to fly in. And that, too, is a love worth remembering...